It’s been a long time. Everything has felt two years more than it’s suppose to. We’ve grown too slow and suffered too quick.

Hello.

What can I possibly express that is thoughtful? Ill think about this.

I will share this newest revelation that is necessary to all personal growth. This road that we are on, as humans, these cathartic checkpoints that we reach. I’ll tell you which one I am at now.

Execution.

I just finished this rather interesting course. It was a startup accelerator. Pre 6 months ago that meant nothing to me. Now I am apart of this world, supposedly. Long story very long, it’s a course for startups and entrepreneurs, two of the same, to learn the skills necessary to become a mover, shaker and producer of society. I learnt a lot. I met people; on Zoom.

Fascinating.

It humbled me. A lot man. People are so fucking brilliant we have no idea. There will always be somebody that is smarter, better looking, fitter, more intelligent than you. And you know what? That is ok. It is ok to realize that you are but an amoeba waiting to evolve. It is that humbling experience that I have extracted a certain epiphany from.

I read something terrifying today. In the average life there is 26,000 days. Think about that. How your awareness can be broken down to these numerical figures. 26,000 days. Thats not very many.

I thought about that today. It made me more mindful for the things that I do. It’s such a fucking cliche, but to come full circle, execution is everything.

Anybody can have a good idea; carbon-neutral cars.

Theres one. Ideas mean nothing without execution and passion. Consistency, determination, blood, sweat is part of the formula.

Crying, screaming, taking, giving.

Loving.

Leave better than you came.

Kindly

thefoolwithinyou

‘funk’ is a rather interesting adjective to describe a period in one’s life.

You often hear people speak of being ‘in a funk’; suggesting abnormalities in ones usual state of mind. Deferring from happiness and structure, into confusion and contemplation.

In my attempt to understand this rather obtuse feeling, I found myself making an analogy with glass.

To be clear, I believe that being in a ‘funk’ shares striking similarities to depression, but rather lies right above; sandwiched between an overall contentment and the eternal condemnation which is the aforementioned.

For further elucidation, picture this.

A large piece of glass, unhinged and glistening. A piece of glass, the size of a door, steadily floating in nothingness. All the eye can see is this glass sparkling bright as day. Untouched, unscathed, clear and complete.

The glass, in its rectangular shape, sits as its suppose to. As the universe intended. Serving its purpose of being perfect and whole. It is glass and nothing more. Not shards nor cracks. Not sand nor stars. Just ordinary, glistening glass.

When one feels they are in a funk, or a little off, or not even themselves. When one feels this way for an extended period of time, this perfect glass begins to be poisoned by cracks and faults.

Have you ever been blessed by the experience of observing an object in public life, such as a window or door, that appears to be fully broken – but somehow not? Its as if someone has thrown a boulder or large object at a window, and the glass is riddled with faults, dagged lines and fractures. You approach the object and touch it out of interest and intrigue, and find yourself perplexed as to why it has not fallen to pieces.

It’s as if the outer structure of the glass has held its foundation of being whole, yet the insides have been pulverized into pieces that still remain in place, yet no longer connected completely. Cracked, desperately clinging to the foundation. The individual shards yearn to be whole again, clutching to the little strength they have left to remain in position, and not be swept away by the forces of the cosmos.

It is this glass that I make my analogy. The first example is a healthy state of mind. One that is whole and happy. One that has an overall positive conscious outlook. One that is excited, empowered and elucidated by life itself. It is unscathed and uncracked because of the strength of the overall foundation which is the glass. And that glass is a healthy happy state of mind.

One which is not influenced, driven or manipulated by the ‘cracks’ in the unconscious, but rather rational, positive and imaginative.

One that does not suffer from fragmented thoughts searching for an underlying connection, but rather governed by a healthy personality; characterized by a positive attitude and intellectual stimulation,

When one feels as if they are in a ‘funk’, or going a little off the rails, or not feeling like their ‘usual self’, it’s as if this complete glass begins to dismantle from the inside. Not to the point where the whole glass falls apart – suggesting a sort of serious depression or psychotic episode, but rather where the faults are beginning to become clear to the eye. The glass is no longer whole, but divided into unconnected, disparate and sharp sections of shards.

A funk state of mind is precisely that piece of glass which seems so broken, but somehow is not. It is a period of forced introspection; to allow the conscious mind to take control from various attitudes and bad habits which have been allowed to flourish in the unconscious. Why this occurs is natural and important for personal growth. Being stuck in your old ways, being the same as you always have, or even not learning from your past. Whether due to a new environment, changes in relationships, personal aspirations, you name it. The funk forces you to change, only if you’re aware of it. It shows you the fine line between bad habits and festering depression. That sliver of your mind that is capable to push you over the edge. That inner voice that can be so apathetic and hopeless.

 

But it’s not all that bad.

 

There was a movie quote that really stuck to me that went something like this; ‘the best thing about hitting rock bottom is you have nowhere of going but up’

And being in a ‘funk’ isn’t hitting rock bottom at all.

But it’s a natural indication for your mind to approach, assess and confront the things that are bothering you; the behaviours and attitudes have put you ‘off’ in the first place. Those feelings that have led you astray from your true self.

In short, be thankful for the ‘funk’, and the lessons learned upon returning to normality.

Life is an oscillation of understanding. Of constantly finding and losing yourself, on, and on, and on. But the second, or third, or fifteenth time we find ourself, we continuously learn new things that were oblivious before. We become aware, and through that, we become better people.

 

It’s how we rise from a fall that truly defines us as emotional beings.

 

I know it sucks feeling like you’re in a ‘funk’, but trust that it will end, and more importantly, trust that there is something to learn from it, because there is something to learn from every aspect of life.

 

All you have to do is listen.

 

kindly,

 

thefoolwithinyou